ARGH!!! im being hysterical right now yes i am!!! not being out of the 100 yards from my crib is really freaking me out... its been 3 days... 3 FUCKING DAYS!!! either i' m just too lazy or my friends are busy... huhu... Oh God please help me get away from this suffering I cant break down and have Schizophrenia is this continues... so please i'm calling for help here...save me!!!

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You're The Best Thing That Is Occurring In My Life Right Now

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I love you patamon
hee...

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no one will understand even when i tell them about it
they don't feel how i feel it
their life is different from mine
i' m in desperate need of help but i have no one to hang on to...
maybe just keeping it quiet is the best way o settle this problem of mine...
some of you maybe against it of me bottling it up, but still you guys can't help me even you know about it...
i' m not being emo lately but i' m being irritating lately...sooner or later baby will be pissed off with me...i don't blame her if she does that
i feel i' m not fufilling my role as a good boyfie...
just waiting for the extreme makeover to happen anytime now

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I'm Sorry

Empty frames, pictures torn apart.
No goodnight kisses anymore.
And goodbye sweetie,
now I have to go,
remember me.

There is a better place,
that awaits me, I'll see you there.
You've got the whole world,
ahead of you.

Ahead of you.

I'm sorry,
I didn't say goodbye.
I'm sorry that, I made you cry.
And I'd make it up to you,
If I had the, if I had the chance to.

And what are we supposed to do,
when everything goes wrong?
Is it possible to change our, destiny?
N what are we supposed to do,
when everything right goes wrong?
It's impossible, to change our, destiny.

To change our destiny.

There is a better place,
that awaits me.
I'll see you there.
You've got the whole world,
Ahead of you.
Ahead of you...

-Daphne Khoo

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im irritated...
not with anyone but with myself
i gave myself too much hopes on things
guess i wasn't the type who wanted something badly
i rotted...
now most of the time i put it back on even when with mas...
she didn't know it and i regretted doing that...
i cant love myself anymore due to past events
i took her for granted
she has been helping me to buck up in life

just wanted to tell you when i was chatting with you a few mins ago it was back on thats why i find myself irritating and i acted cold towards you...

should i put it back on for the better of people??

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took two quizzes
here's the result

February

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

Emotions

You tend to laugh and joke around when you are with everyone, but you feel lonely and empty when are all alone. you cry alone when you have stress and problems. you often have many problems that are bugging you, but you never show them out on your face. you are not as cheerful as they thought, but you just don't wish to spoilt the mood of everyone, hence you hide your emotions inside.

went to chalet from tues till thurs
out to sentosa after chalet on thurs
i'ts was fun but sadly it didn't brighten up my week...
you know why...i wont forget about it even though i told you i will close one eye about it...

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Fun Of My Life

back from Genting on sunday
had fun
went shopping hee

spent on little things like
-levi's wallet
-chanel wallet
-echo park signature watch
-Lacoste shoes
-topman shawl
-checkered shirt
-echo park tee
-bracelet
-cow plushie keychain

ya..thats all i guess...
spent more that 1ooo ringgit_._
this was my most expensive shopping spree ever at Malaysia
once a New York i didnt spent anything
that was when i was small lah
at Australia i only spent S$400
the rest was ellysha's treat

lazy to brag
so pictures below

blaze,tom,kuai

org dayak!!!

smoking break 1

Merry Go Round was fun!!

Willy Wonka's Chocolate Workers

3 rascals_._

smoking break 2

kuai feat blaze keai

pasrah...takut roller coaster

last pic of the trip

last but not least
look at this pic...

crap ain't it i know no need to tell me haha

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currently at Genting...
am fucking bored right now...
so i randomly post anything...
it may not link so don't mind me though...

the rest of the family is outside shopping but i'm stuck here at Coffee Bean...hahahx
I'm just lazy to go shopping...
mama asked me to buy another pair of shoes...
papa asked me to buy clothes but i still have clothes which i haven't used yet...
i really have no idea what to shop on...
i still have abundant of clothes and accessories which i myslef had no time to wear...
if i buy another pair of shoes i will have 8 pairs of shoes...

k urh more updates will come later...
im fucking bored so wanna walk around aimlessly alone like always...

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i've confessed...
now my heart is at peace finally...

suffering alone in silence...
tell or not to tell?
give me time to reveal it all to you...


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are 'nt we sweet!!??
hahahx
Happy 30 Days Anniversary Baby
i feel safe when i 'm with you
you changed my perception of love and i 'm glad you did that
for the insecurities i 've sub-consciously made between us was unintentional
i 'm apologise for that
'La Vita E Bella'
I love that phrase
it made us feel so special towards each other, lets keep it that way aite
remember every time i playfully get on your nerves?
just so you know its for the 'fun, joy and laughter'
sorry for the messed up hair whenever you're always with me
haha, you can never get that hair do with anyone else, be proud aite ;p
well there's one gift i want from you for our anni, be yourself baby
to me thats more than enough
there's no need for any flowers or any any sweet gifts
all i wanted is a sincere kiss and a hug from you

Confession:
when the first week im with you, in my heart i doubt we will pull though or even be together for a long time...
there are too many differences between us and your world and my is way far apart...
but...
you proved me wrong baby...
you pushed aside your differences just to be with me and that truly touched me...
this may seem ridiculous but you're the 1st person who actually accept who i am and you did 'nt even jugde me for that...
that is when i feel comfortable to tell you are my dark secrets which i myself feel uncomfortable to tell to any single soul...
you kept asking me why i love you...
i will tell you why i love you dearly...
you loved me like no one else did except for my parents lah
you will never fail to make my day even when you did 'nt even know it
there are too many why i love you
but the most important is you cared for me...
i remembered you scolded me whenever i hurt myself...you will get hysterical over a small cut...
i smiled silently whenever you said 'if you don't care about yourself, let others care for you'
hahah...you're are my sweet gundu and will always be...

SO.....HAPPY 30 DAYS ANNIVERSARY WITH YOU MASTURA BINTE MIKHAIL ADAM
heeheeheehee...i love you so much

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Sorry guys, i 'm not being myself lately
pardon for any tantrums i threw at you guys...
did 'nt mean it though
give me time to be myself back aite...
Mummy sorry if i terrify you these days...
Ashiteru-ne kobito-san aite...

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You can Never Be Part Of The Rhythem Of The Music In My Life

The sandcastle i effortly build for me and mummy is nearly demolished all because of you...

Must you always come and trample down every sandcastle i made??

I don't give a damn shit when you said

'I want you back, i'll make sure i will have you back'

You're being one-sided again like always...

You can never realise your mistake don't you...

You know how much hatred i have towards hypocrites but still why must you be one yourself??

You called my mum and complained that i ignored your messages and did'nt picked your calls...

For what i want to pick your calls if you just want to tell me to get away from mummy.

Seriously get a life ok.

Stop pestering me with your cheap love...

OK?

I'm much more happy with mummy than you and i'll assure you that.

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p.s. Ashiteru-ne Kobito-san Mummy