Un-Invited Feelings

Deceit
Spiteful
Cold
Abhorrence
Detest
Bitterness
Enmity

add them together and you get hatred
the perfect emotion right now for me

idc who you are
just dont assume things which i didnt do
its irritating
so what if you know about my past
that does not mean im will stay like that always
people change so please give me air to breathe
im big enough to think what right for me
i will take all the responsibilties for every single things ive done ok
dont bother texting me if all you do is to pull me down
please get the facts right before you throw assumptions on me
for every bad thigs i did you regard it as the end of the world
have you ever thought of my privacy when you checked through the messages
what if i did that to you too??
you will falre up dont you???
so have some thought on me also...
i have enough...
you literally went overboard today...
you've been cold towards me since the starting of the week...
you pin pointed me non-stop
i do have feelings
you expect me just to care about your feelings...
you're sick and i understand that
but must i restrict myself from doing anything just to make you happy??
i rarely go out nowdays because of this...
my sec frens are dissapointed in me cos i didnt follow up with their activities and outings...
i kept giving them excuses, lame stupid excuses...
i really had enough...
im becoming numb...
i will change...
i will make sure of that
just remember i still have the mask in me dont forget that

p.s S.H.M.I.L.Y
pss Your tuttut boy wont be showing himself for quite sometime